I asked..

I asked my inner child today what it wanted.  It’s a good question to ask more than every once in a while. I admit, I’ve been entertaining the little-me well, and I haven’t mistreated her, but I also havem’t asked what she wanted in a while. So I asked, what should we do?

She answered, We should go on an adventure. I want to travel.

Well, I suppose since I’m done with being an undergrad, now is a good time to get lost as any.

I want to see something mysterious.

I want to be shocked.

I want to be surprised.

You are keeping us too safe.

Ah, how true, how true, little me! An answer you’ve had for some time. An answer that explains so much. We’re restless. My curious self hasn’t had a challenge in so long.

It is true, I have been staying too safe. Scared by the world, I live in my little cheap basement apartment. No job, of course. But it is safe. I have food and internet. I have gym access. I see some friends. We watch movies, cook, drink. Yet, when little-me said, we are too safe, I knew it to be true. A hamster being able to see the glass tank all around it. I have allowed myself to remain suspended. Not moving, not risking, not trying…in essence, not living. I might have been resting for a while. That’s a worthy spenditure of time. After that, was I merely trying to keep my heart safe? Protect it for when my lover comes? Maybe the anxiety of a long-distance relationship was too much. Maybe that’s why I go to the gym so often?

I need an adventure.

Why am I just waiting for something to happen to me? It’s highly uncharacteristic.

Well then, time to take off the safety nets.